Life’s a struggle & this struggle is a constant! Everything else is ever changing! They say change is the only constant! No my friend, change is not the only constant.
You know what else is a constant? The fact that life sucks, more than half of it at least!
I know I’m portraying a pessimistic state of mind. This bothers me because I’ve a very positive temperament by nature. The truth is I’m the only one to blame for all my pessimism & this contrast in my otherwise natural temperament!
I’ve been spending a lot of time reading & watching content on self development. In pursuing this interest, I’ve come across a few deep topics which has triggered my mind, in a good way.
I’ve been going through a lot of internal struggle for the past few weeks. It’s hard coming to terms with & then going against your old beliefs, breaking previously set values & accepting your own mistakes.
Another aspect of this internal struggle is a particular thought which has been bugging me to no end. The thought that I might have made one big mistake in my life. Once something is done, it can’t be undone. Call it fear, regret or some kind of guilt, but this thing has literally shaken me from the inside.
I can not not wonder why we do the things we do, especially why do we do the things we know we’ll regret doing later. It’s probably because most of the time this realization & the sense of regret remains subconscious & appears only after we’ve done what we shouldn’t have done.
We don’t just make a mistake in life suddenly out of nowhere. It takes a period of time & a series of thoughts that slowly translates into that one mistake. We have to take responsibility for the mistakes we’ve done & the pain we’ve caused to ourselves & others.
Something Jim Carrey said in one of his remarkable motivational speech has made a deep mark on me & his words keep echoing in my mind. Let me paraphrase it for you-
Man would see mermaid’s head but not dragon’s tail. A lot of times you don’t want to believe in the bad but the bad is there, negativity or obvious drawback of the situation is there. But you just go I WANT! It all comes down to fears & desire. My desire is my only drawback.
There’s nothing stronger or more powerful than our own desires. It can motivate us to achieve great things, but sometimes it can also become the reason for our mistakes. Our desire is that magical ingredient underneath our thoughts that drives our actions. Now I can not not wonder why we want the things we want!
Can we do something about our desires and our mistakes? Probably, probably not! But for now I think if struggle is what it takes to realize our mistakes, then the struggle is worth all the pain! True realizations will shape your mind & your character, you’ll never forget what you’ve learned & you’ll never be the same again in life.
The constant struggle of being, of living, of accepting our mistakes will end at some point, only to begin again with another new struggle of being, of living, of accepting a few more mistakes!
The struggle is real & it is very much a constant. But as long as it steers your soul & makes you reflect on your life, it’s all worth it!
What’s causing you ‘your constant struggle of being’? Please do share your thoughts…